Everythings relative right?

Nah.

I haven't slept yet today. My mind and heart are both racing. I don't know what it is but I feel so lost, I can't focus on anything anymore, and committing to anything seems like a fucking stretch.

When I try to sleep, my mind wanders. I think of everything. I play out every scenario in my head. Good, bad, ugly. Doesn't matter I've thought of it.

I think I blackout sometimes, I don't remember certain blocks of certain days.

I'm starting to worry myself.

Let Me Fall...

So nothing new really. Been spending lots of time with the girlfriend and the mother.

I've applied to a shit load of jobs lately, we'll see what pans out... if anything.

The band situation is at a stand still.

Just did a bunch of design work for Tiefighter (pass/poster..)

Fuck, i'm going crazy.

P.S. Watch Heroes!

Erase It All

Aside from redesigning my blog, I really don't feel like I have accomplished much lately.

I don't know where I'm going in life, I would just like to be there soon.

Again it all comes down to money - Verse

l.i.f.e.

It's funny how I'm not "grown up" because I want to work somewhere where I am happy and appreciated. Or how I still want to dedicate myself to a band instead of a dead end job. How just because I like to play video games, I'm not grown up.

Nevermind that I live on my own, and pay for my own shit.

Think about what you say before you open your mouth. Hypocrite.

Greatest Hits...

So Anthems is officially done, the show on sunday is no longer happening. I think we are going to wait until Shane gets back from the Molotov Solution tour, and then the Tiefighter tour. Good luck bro, be safe out there!!

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little depressed cause I am. I guess there are things I wanted to say and songs I'd still like to sing. It's okay, I know i'll get the chance one day.

The new band has members and a practice space but we have yet to practice. Scheduling conflicts mostly. I wrote some lyrics I'd really like to use, I'm really proud of them. Next to 'The Idea' they are probably my favorite lyrics thus far.

Other than that, not much is going on.