Everythings relative right?

Nah.

I haven't slept yet today. My mind and heart are both racing. I don't know what it is but I feel so lost, I can't focus on anything anymore, and committing to anything seems like a fucking stretch.

When I try to sleep, my mind wanders. I think of everything. I play out every scenario in my head. Good, bad, ugly. Doesn't matter I've thought of it.

I think I blackout sometimes, I don't remember certain blocks of certain days.

I'm starting to worry myself.